Let it be said that I have no remorse, nor will I ever show compbumion for people that try to become an hero. Those sorts of people are okay with the fact that making a permanent solution to a temporary problem is the best option, which is something I will never understand or relate to.

-XI- Posted:

permanent solution to a temporary problem

My mom says that ALL the time.

sgreat timesmyfrog Posted:

Uh, I’m pretty sure you’re way off base here. Maybe you meant to refer to suicidal thoughts?

Well, the National Youth Violence Prevention Resource Center reports 1 in 12 high schoolers made a suicide attempt in the last year (1 in 5 reported suicidal thoughts), so the statistics say I’m not that far off at all, actually.

Tesfan: “you think your life is bad now dodge market bombs ****”

elenaratelimit: oh noes my life sux i dont wanna get up in da morning kill me

elenaratelimit: laffo @ tylenol too

elenaratelimit: typical ‘find me before i die’ suicide method

-XI-: they are like kids crying at the first sight of blood

Patch The Darknut: Tesfan: :B I’m still wearing my hospital band, ****.

-XI-: then cut the other wrist

elenaratelimit: AHAHAHAHA

-XI- was banned for this post by Evil Trout

DesdiPhoenix Posted:

DesdiPhoenix: Good job patch.

7:22PM

DesdiPhoenix: You have are attention.

7:22PM

DesdiPhoenix: You’re MORE worthless than ever.

7:22PM

DesdiPhoenix: I hope you REALLy do it.

7:22PM

Patch The Darknut: elenaratelimit: Deep?

7:23PM

Patch The Darknut: Haha.

7:23PM

DesdiPhoenix: OH.

7:23PM

DesdiPhoenix: FYI

7:23PM

Patch The Darknut: Your definition of deep sucks.

7:23PM

Patch The Darknut: LAG D:

7:23PM

Fran: Patch The Darknut: Your definition of suicide sucks

7:24PM

Patch The Darknut: DesdiPhoenix: TLDR pl0x, I’m doin’ homoworkz.

7:24PM

Patch The Darknut: Fran: Lolsuicide atempt.

GUESS WHO MADE IT ALL UP!?

Pfft, you think that proves it? Brb, taking screencaps of my prescription.

Patch The Darknut Posted:

Log in to see images!

LOL NOT NEAR A VEIN. Yeah seriously though, those aren’t real at all. Stop pretending.

I’m seriously not trolling. So please don’t b& me.

-XI- Posted:

Learn how to use a damn scanner ffs…

Also, your puncture marks are nowhere near any veins.

Log in to see images!

Patch The Darknut Posted:

Tch, most of you are ****es.

Those who offered help, thanks.

I got my anti-depressants today. Fluoxetine or whatever it’s called. They’re supposed to help.

I didn’t elaborate on WHY I did it, did I?

Essentially, I did it because I’ve got no motivation to do most things. Sure, I’ll wake up and get dressed, go to school, etc. But I’m not getting things I want done. I’m losing the joy I get from things I used to enjoy, including FW. Because of the no-motivation, I see myself not being able to hold onto a job and then eventually ending up homeless.

This also leads into my mentality of, “I’m a useless burden, I shouldn’t be wasting people’s stuff. Since I can’t get anywhere, I’m just hurting them.”

When I took the pills, I initially thought everyone would be better off in the long run. But when I got so many people’s replies (IRL replies), I realize I’d just be harming them.

TLDR; I’m still miserable, but I’m not going to try to do it again, because that’d hurt them.

PS: I chose tylenol because I didn’t want to leave a mess behind.

PPS: There were only 12 extra-strengths left in the bottle.

PPPS: My liver is AWWWWWWRIGHT, said the doctor.

Actually. Take up bodybuilding (serious). It is structured, gives you routine and reason. You feel strong, powerful confident and in control. I felt a similar kind of apathy to you a few years ago, once those endorphins kick in and you feel strong your life will change for the better. It will also give you a sense of progress and achievement which should help your ambition problems and low self-esteem.

Angry hobo Posted:

People who really have the urges to kill them self dont talk about it. People who do it (like you) are just looking for attention.

That is not only untrue but horribly insensitive.

I’ve volunteered as a suicide prevention counselor for almost 10 years. While it’s true that people with very high intent and means don’t usually reach out by, say, calling suicide hotlines before attempting/completing suicide, I’ve talked to many people with intent ranging from low (still very ambivalent) to high (almost certain to attempt/complete). Your argument fails further because the OP didn’t post here BEFORE attempting (i.e., a cry for help) but rather afterwards.

Also, a successful completion has NOTHING to with intent but rather with the method used. In other words, someone could have very high intent to die but use a method like wrist-cutting or pills that is sometimes non-fatal. This is why more men complete suicide but more women attempt it: men tend to use more fatal means like guns, while women tend to use pills, cutting, etc.

ANYway. Patch the Darknut, there are plenty of good resources out there for suicidal thoughts, depression, and other mental health issues. If you haven’t yet found a medication that works, or a counselor who is helping, you have to keep looking. Try calling 1-800-SUICIDE to be connected to your closest crisis center. Crisis centers aren’t only for suicide prevention; they also have information on local mental health resources and can be incredibly helpful.

Tig O-Bitties Posted:

That is not only untrue but horribly insensitive.

I’ve volunteered as a suicide prevention counselor for almost 10 years. While it’s true that people with very high intent and means don’t usually reach out by, say, calling suicide hotlines before attempting/completing suicide, I’ve talked to many people with intent ranging from low (still very ambivalent) to high (almost certain to attempt/complete). Your argument fails further because the OP didn’t post here BEFORE attempting (i.e., a cry for help) but rather afterwards.

Also, a successful completion has NOTHING to with intent but rather with the method used. In other words, someone could have very high intent to die but use a method like wrist-cutting or pills that is sometimes non-fatal. This is why more men complete suicide but more women attempt it: men tend to use more fatal means like guns, while women tend to use pills, cutting, etc.

ANYway. Patch the Darknut, there are plenty of good resources out there for suicidal thoughts, depression, and other mental health issues. If you haven’t yet found a medication that works, or a counselor who is helping, you have to keep looking. Try calling 1-800-SUICIDE to be connected to your closest crisis center. Crisis centers aren’t only for suicide prevention; they also have information on local mental health resources and can be incredibly helpful.

I got my Fluoxetine prescription today. It’s… a little slow, but it’s okay. The suicidal thoughts have left, but I’m still bummed out. I lost the will to try suicide again after I saw how badly it would’ve hit everyone. I’d rather be homeless than ruin everyone else’s lives.