Patch The Darknut Posted:

Tch, most of you are ****es.

Those who offered help, thanks.

I got my anti-depressants today. Fluoxetine or whatever it’s called. They’re supposed to help.

I didn’t elaborate on WHY I did it, did I?

Essentially, I did it because I’ve got no motivation to do most things. Sure, I’ll wake up and get dressed, go to school, etc. But I’m not getting things I want done. I’m losing the joy I get from things I used to enjoy, including FW. Because of the no-motivation, I see myself not being able to hold onto a job and then eventually ending up homeless.

This also leads into my mentality of, “I’m a useless burden, I shouldn’t be wasting people’s stuff. Since I can’t get anywhere, I’m just hurting them.”

When I took the pills, I initially thought everyone would be better off in the long run. But when I got so many people’s replies (IRL replies), I realize I’d just be harming them.

TLDR; I’m still miserable, but I’m not going to try to do it again, because that’d hurt them.

PS: I chose tylenol because I didn’t want to leave a mess behind.

PPS: There were only 12 extra-strengths left in the bottle.

PPPS: My liver is AWWWWWWRIGHT, said the doctor.

Actually. Take up bodybuilding (serious). It is structured, gives you routine and reason. You feel strong, powerful confident and in control. I felt a similar kind of apathy to you a few years ago, once those endorphins kick in and you feel strong your life will change for the better. It will also give you a sense of progress and achievement which should help your ambition problems and low self-esteem.