i’m not ****ing anyone. that’s the problem.

i mean that in more than one way. i’m a nobody, and i don’t have a girl. i’m not gay or even bi though. i don’t mind those that are. just i’m not. except that while i can define myself as what i’m not, i can’t find who i -am-. i can’t even say i’m asexual, because i want sex. i’m not sure if i’m straight. i just know i’m not not straight. i just don’t have any.

sarah…

why must you torment me so?

if i got hit by the schoolbus, maybe she’d notice me.