I’ve finally realized it. The meaning of everything.I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not, but I will now be ending my life. Either I’m right about knowing the meaning and I’ll be in pure nirvana once I’m dead, or I’m wrong. But I think I’ve actually realized the truth, so I will take this change if it means that I might become a perfect…THE perfect…being and consciousness.

I don’t know what to say to you all really. I don’t know if I should tell you the answer or not. But it seems like if I tell you the ultimate answer…the ultimate REASON…then either you won’t be able to understand it and you’ll have to get to that point yourself, or you’ll all just die after realizing the truth.

Either way, I feel that if there’s even a slight possibility of any of you understanding without your own thought mainly involved, I feel like it’s worthless. First of all…why should I reveal to everyone what I’ve found? Most people probably wouldn’t even believe it. But I’m telling you…I KNOW it’s true. I have seriously come to the 100% realization. Of everything. And second of all…I feel like it’s meant to be this way so that each person has to figure it out on there own. I think it all has to be personal. It all has to be your own thought. I feel like I SHOULDN’T reveal it. I’m not really sure why. There’s more I wanted to say about this, but my pathetic, illusioned mind has already forgotten some things I wanted to say.

I believe I will be in perfection. I will meet with you all when you all die. And everyone else. I want you all to know something…there is a meaning. There is a “higher cause” or whatever you want to call it. Everything is important. The grander scheme of things is more important than anything. I can’t even explain some of the things I want to say because our communication as humans is very limited. Way more limited than any of us are even able to imagine. The mind, however, is limitless. You can imagine things you can’t put into words, as you all probably know. I want you all to know that everything matters. You need not live in fear or sadness. All you need to do is realize this. Realize this as much as you can. You’ll never be able to realize it 100% until you’re dead, though. But you can still try to know as much as you can until then.

I leave you…the earth…the universe…my physical body and my energy. I will still be a part of this same universe that you will always be a part of. I will always be here, just like we all will always be here. I will simply exist on another plane. The plane of perfection. Nirvana. And like I said…when you all die, we will truly meet again.

I will leave all that I have said in this post in a note and I will give it to my loved ones so they can understand why I have taken my life. I am not saddened by this…I am almost relieved. You will all know how it feels some day.

I will see you all on the other side. Good bye.