jiggaloon Posted:
its weird because im at this age now where i actually have some time to look back on and im picking up the pieces from all this trauma i went through as a kid and i think that trauma is what attracted me to these kinds of places you know? the conflict and toxicity was so normal to me because of my family that i actually sought it out in my social interactions w ppl and its been a process of removing that from my personality. its hard, man. i just went through a difficult breakup and my fear of being inadequate is what did it, and i just wish i could have not had that fear because i liked the guy and i liked spending time with him. it doesnt matter now though which makes it hard to care about continuing the work ive been doing on myself but i know ill be better off regardless
haha gayyyyyyyy