Hey, I’m 14 year old girl and I have had the same problem a

For a long time now. When I was 5, my brother had molested me. I’ve told no one because I was scared of what would happen. I have great parents and we’re all Christians but that made me even more ashamed to tell anyone. At 6 I saw my first porn video, like a lot ofyou have said, I was sick to my stomach and I layer in bed crying that night, not knowing what to do. I was confussed and terrified. But I found a porn DVD in my brothers room and I tarted watching it and I got addicted. Later in 2nd grade my cousin and I played “Boyfriend and Girlfriend (she’s a girl) and she would hump, touch, and stroke down there. She was only two years older than me so we didn’t know any better. Ever since then I had found a way to watch porn or masturbate with what ever I could get my hands on; a thermometer, a back mbumager, etc. I do have a good family and friends, I’m smart and talented, but also shy, but I have never told anyone any of this because I’m really scared. I thinks it’s scared me, and I have an iPod touch and I watch porn on there and masturbate to it. I don’t want to but it feels good, and it relieves my stress. I want to stop because I know it’s not the right thing to do, but I just don’t know how. I really need help. Sometimes it makes me feel so depressed to the point where I feel like committing suicide because I have a great life but I abuse it. I really want o quit but I don’t know how. At one point my father caught me masturbating and looking at porn but he never talked to me about it, although he did try to put a lock on the iPod. I found a way around it. I feel a little better having told someone this, but if anyone has any answers on how I can stop, please let me know before it’s too late for me.And it’s turning into a daily thing, maybe 2 or 3 times a day where I do this. Sometimes I would wake myself up at 2 in the morning jut to satisfy myself. I just don’t know what to do anymore.