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I yawn and turn over in bed. Can’t sleep. Again.
Downstairs the TV is on And I can hear you calling names Of players in your never-ending game. You cheer and wake up my brother But you don’t realize it. The TV is up too high.
So I stand to take care of the child But he falls silent So I return to bed And pull the blanket up over my head And curl into a tight ball For protection from my dreams.
Your heavy footsteps outside of my door Drag just enough to tell me you’re sober But not enough to tell me whether you Plan to take my innocence again, What’s left of it, anyway.
Slight fluctuations in your breath that I Pretend I can detect. My mind flashes to the clock on the nightstand. Red blinking numbers that tell the time Reliably. Readily.
I can feel the cold knife of air pbum under the sheets And back up to clip the back of my neck and intensify My shaking, which was caused by you’re presence in this room.
A thousand frozen needles cutting my flesh As you pull back the red blanket and Lie down without a word behind me.
For a moment you wait, calm fluttering in my chest turns to acid Running through my lungs. Your hands are gentle at first, as they Peel me out of my enclosed shape. You smile and leave saliva on my neck As if I was your wife, and not your son. Am I your son? I might as well not be.
Lying in your arms I used to be safe, when I was small and would climb in beside you After a nightmare, when the memory was fresh in my mind of being shot through the chest And you would always hold me and tell me everything would be okay. Did you believe yourself?
Hands all over me, like raindrops or a shower running over my skin. You might as well be made of fire. I can’t help but feel like this s what I want. Can’t help but feel like sex with you isn’t that bad. Is it Because I’m used to it? Used to you? I used to go somewhere else in my mind but now I Stay here mentally with you as you find what you were looking for between my legs And move your hands back and forth over it, preparing me for what you’ll do.
I can’t do anything but stare at the clock and be glad it’ll all be over soon. You line yourself up with me and it doesn’t hurt anymore, I just feel A slight pressure as you press your hands to my hips to hold me Steady. Your body rocks sideways, I’m amazed you can do This in such an odd position. Usually we’ve flipped by Now. Now? Now you swallow hard and I can feel Saliva running down your throat and my neck And other fluids running from lower places Onto the sheet; it’ll stain slightly lighter Than the blanket originally was….
You grunt and moan as you hit the brink of Your moment in the sun, and as you step away There’s a glow coming from your body. Leftover From when you finished your task.
You leave me to clean up, To pbum out even though I’m Covered in both of our sweat and Saliva and blood from where you bit me, Semi-white liquid left for me to dispose of.
But I don’t clean up. I’m too exhausted. I can’t move, really. As I catch my breath, Exhaustion Puts Me To S L E E P . . . Log in to see images!
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Posted On: 05/02/2010 4:00AM | View xxEmoxKidxx's Profile | # |