NOOOOOOOOO. He MUST love me! He MUST. It’s all I have to live for. I am hanging on the intangible hope that one day we will have beautiful, pbumionate, sweaty, lust-filled sex and then we’ll cry about it after, sharing our feelings, and maybe cut a little, we might even draw love hearts on each others still trembling, pale chests with the blood.

Hello

I am back. I….I….should be in the hospital…......I couldnt stay there any more tho….....I had some help escaping…......Thanx againg nightstalker…......why didnt you visit me?...........or perhaps you did before i woke?..........They wanted to keep me on drugs…...I will not do that anymore….....I …...I am free from the hold of mind altering substances…....For the first time in a long time i am free….....no more drugs….....no drink…......no caffeine even…......My mind is clear now….and the only thing i see in it is you….........I dont know how i will make it up to you but i will….....tell me is there anything you need?......anything at all…...I think i have already proven i will do anything for the one i love…................